MAN!!! KAYA!! Made me laugh so hard today!!
I love you girls man XD
muahahahaha XD
I should really pronounce my words properly ^_^
Racism = Rainy season LOLOL XDXDXD
I should go for speech therapy man ^^
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Why is it that some people think that if anybody had alot of exes means that he/she is a slut or a playboy? Why? Why do you think like that? Have you ever thought of the situation that they had been through?
Okay , maybe you guys thinks that "oh but he/she dumped the exes so he/she is really mean and awful" But the situation isn't that simple. As a third person viewing it , your seeing it based on what you've read books/watch in movies relating it. Maybe some might be like that but not all are.
Have you guys ever thought that , this person isn't one who sits and wait for love but rather is going out there on one's own finding and searching high and low for that special someone.
Certain people think that its a bad record to have exes. I don't.
In my opinion , I think they had been searching and still isn't able to find the special one.
Everyone has their different points of view. Well , this is my point of view. I hate to talk about love but what do you know ?! Here I am talking about it . Ironic huh
i realised I know nothing about love.
All I know is about handling relationships
but it has nothing to do with love.
All the shoujo mangas i read
They were about handling BGR and about sweet quotes couples say to each other
Nothing about love.
i think I did had one , but i threw it away unknowingly or at least now i realise what i lost.
i know regrets isnt good but im unable to apologise .
I'm unable to bring it back because i know
Once that special feeling you had was thrown away
You can never get it back.
I realise how stupid I was back in sec1 and 2.
”I'm glad I met you.
Even now , I know I can't re-do what i did. Man. I suck man. Like literally. I wished I had used my brain or even analysed the situation before even executing it. Fuck man. I'm thinking about it because I think I sort of understand what and how that person went through. Like I'm such an idiot. I didn't ask I just did it. I knew nothing about anything. I just let it flow, I didnt control the situation and let it flow pass me I didn't even think, even if i had apologised nothing can change what I did. Man.
Want to know why , why I did it. I'm afraid of getting Schzophrenia. I'm so afraid of that mental disorder. I can't understand myself , how was I able to understand the situation. I felt like I thought i was doing the right thing or was it out of jealousy I was unable to do anything.
Now , it wouldn't be the same I know. I hate the past. Really , I do. It keeps haunting me non-stop.
Recently I've got dreams about everything.
After a year i just realise what I did wrong. no , what I had not done. I could have been more sensitive towards people feelings . I was fucking scared of losing the people around me that I just pushed them away. I can't help but blame myself for not asking about their wants or even think about the consequences or the time spent together man. Fuck Man.
I'm not only getting dreams about it but I got a taste of my own medicine.
Bottomline - i know nothing about myself how was i able to love anyone to begin with.But I know one thing for sure was that I could make anyone happy if you just got to know me more and stop judging about all the crazy I've done and the people I hang out with.
I hope your not reading this , because of all people I do not know what to say to you anymore. I can't face you cause you'll just judge me I just know it. you won't think of me of who you had thought before. I'm someone I have no idea at all.
