Pink Peppercorn Macaroons

 So anyways today , I was having dinner with Pohyi and Tiffany. Both of them went to buy the food and it took a really long time for them to come back , while they were gone , Gosh , the family next to me was speaking in chinese (not that i dont understand) the young girl was asking the "da jie jie" how do you put on contact lenses , god the aunt literally open her friggin eyes and showed it LOLOL XDXD I'd almost laughed seeing the way she did it.

I dont actually have any problems against them , was just really bored waiting for Pohyi and Tiffany for the food. Nex thing i knew a second lil girl came along and for some reason she held a nail clipper , the 3 adults(prolly the most unhygienic ones i've ever met) instructed her to cut her nails right THEN and THERE.

"For god's sake , you dont have to take KFC's Finger Lickin Good motto so literally >_>" I thought. Haha Customers these days are definitely getting crazier LOL XD

I feel so clingy the last few days but still I'm afraid of everything. Even when men on train stand next ot me or look towards my direction. I don't like it one bit. And each time i date a guy , none of them has ever said something that i've been longing to hear. Its not the " iloveyou" its something more precious and more commiting sort I guess eveyrone is still young and naive no one can understand the real meaning of love at all.But then again its my fault i dumped them before we knew anything about each other or anything at all. Youth. We should really treasure it. And treasure being single because no one knows when they would fall in love again and thinking about my past relationships i realise how exhausting BUT memorable and awesome it was.

To be honest I never knew how it felt or how to describe this dying feeling inside my entire body. It aching its worst than anything. But it can't be as bad as how she can handle the whole situation of losing someone so close to her and dear. I feel stupid and frustrated all at once , why can't i do anything for her. Just a simple hello could do it right? Guess not. I should really stop this stupid "shyness" of mine. I couldn't even strike up a stupid conversation with this cute guy i met but i've not intention of being more than friends , god, his my friend's brother , what was i even thinking and his friggin old.

I know this is a freaking long post and its really emo , you dont have to read it , I just can't keep it to myself anymore. But I don't want to talk to anybody about it either.  The one person I know would understand is long gone! And its all thanks to me!!. God jolene your the worst person I've ever known of myself!!! Now everyday in the mirror all i see is an UGLY girl!

Sigh...OMG! you have no idea how pathetically shy i am ^^ ...i feel nervous even when im talking to someone through facebook !!!

" Ok Jolene Who is it this time?"

 Hahaha XDXDXD Bet you guys are wondering , Last time it use to be Eunhyuk from SuperJunior now its ...LEE TAEMIN FROM SHINEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA (-'_'-)  He too is a lead dancer of Shinee. For some reason I'm attracted to him , he has this crying baby faceo n the Music Video of Ring ding Dong which i think is really cute. NO single guy out there would actually show their crying face therefor I like this guy hehe XD And he dance! He is 18years old , Just 4years older than me , Call me !! Taylor Lautner , his still my fave but suddenly just got the creeps from him hehehe no offence to TeamJacob's fans , Its not you Its me.

you know what makes those korean guys hot , or to be more specific what makes a guy really hot NATURALLY , is because of the sharp contour lines on the cheek.Ok maybet hey did plastic surgery but some are actually natural i think...whatever...now i feel disgusted with myself why am i talking about boys ewww. No offence its me not you. But in fact it doesn't make any difference handsome or not if your personality sucks the charm is gone for the ladies.

I've so happy on both Christmas Eve and Christmas day itself I celebrated Christmas with all my best buddies and gal frens ^_^  It really makes my day except for the fact that next year i'll be freaking busy with alot of things!!~~~~I cant believe it!! I've got 4 tuitions~~!! Like I know I can totally predict myself in the future Repression and all >.< I dont want that to happen to me!!!

 A similar jacket to Kum's , except his, is orange which suits him alot ^_^ wanted this BUT thought it seemed really TYPICAL , thus didn;'t really buy it at all.

I dont belive in wishes and dreams anymore. Because right now , i believe i can achieve anything within my hands. That is how cocky i am right now. Though i have yet to overcome my low self esteem that hinders most of my actions and unknown success.